trapped

So, for various reasons I'm still staying with Becca at the moment, and it's freaking me out! Right now, I can't borrow any of my friends car's, so I have to stay home. Pretty frustating 'cause a) It was my birthday b) I'm supposed to meet friends right now c) Lots of people I know are in town, and I would love to see them. Apart from the fact, that it's pretty pathetic to meet people you don't know that well alone. But as Becca's boyfriend probably won't allow her to go anywhere where she might meet guys (luckily she spend my birthday fighting with him, so dinner didn't happen), I guess I am on my own.
I'm approaching a panic attack, simply out of boredom and the fact that I virtually can't leave this place. That there's vodka, but nothing to mix it with, and nothing else to take my mind off things, doesn't help either.
I would cry, but I'm not sad. More panicky...I need to get out of here now! But I have nowhere to go, and no way to get there....
Obviously I'm eating....soups and chocalate cookies...and then I purge...