130.7
Yeah
You want to see it again? feel bad for me, but glad it's not you?
wait, here it comes
130.7
yes, I'm ashamed, embarrassed, angry with myself, slightly worried about going out in public....and so on....
You can imagine what my eating the past few days was like...Bingeing without even purging, foods that I know would give me cramps, and it didn't even stop today.
Now I stopped. Sitting here, feeling full, which always makes me feel pukey, but I don't want to puke.
I want lots of water (which I have) and Laxis (which I don't), and something that stops me from eating, keeps me happy and awake (anyone going to Mexico soon?)...
In absence of that, It's now 6pm here, stopped eating a while ago, but here, publicly, to you and to me, I announce that I won't have anything until tomorrow 6pm. And than it will only be Oatmeal (know, lots of calories. But it is good for you + really feels you up for long periods at a time)!
Know all that's left is hoping the scale doesn't go any further up, drink lots of water now and take Laxis later.....
Might be much later though. Am still at work and will go watch soccer straight after. Becca is away, which is actually quite nice, as in a lot less drama! I only like drama if I created it.
Anyone else who suddenly dreams of dating a soccer player by the way?
meh, i'm just about the same weight as you right now, give or take a pound. 130's suuuck so bad, i can't even express it. let's hurry up and get back down to the 120's asap. and then the 110's, and eventually hopefully just 100. it's just one-thirty is such a huge number, i hate even typing it out. but we'll do it!
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